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Thursday, 13 September 2012

Life is unfair, live with it.

I'm tired of crying, I'm tired of yelling, I'm tired of being sad, I'm tired of pretending, I'm tired of being alone, I'm tired of being angry, I'm tired of feeling crazy, I'm tired of feeling stuck, I'm tired of needing help, I'm tired of remembering, I'm tired of missing things, I'm tired of being different, I'm tired of feeling worthless, I'm tired of feeling empty inside, I'm tired of not being able to just let go, I'm tired of wishing I could start all over, I'm tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. But most of all, I'm tired of being tired. Many a times, many things that happen, many people wouldn't be able to understand. People wouldn't care how much you've been through, how much you have given.

In the end, everything you'd did is just another joke to those who just standby and troll. It's amazing how a relationship starts off with 2 person and ends with a major gangbang, and they go from behind. It's the scary choices that end up being the most worthwhile. I've learned alot from this saga and I would graciously accept all the superficiality of how people are. I will not say I'm the only one who been through the worst, but it's definitely not something you ever wished for. To the extend that you have to beg yourself to be strong and fight back the all the tears to just go back with a smile. I cried, and get over it. I hated you but loved you again. Now I left and won't come back. It takes 2 hands to clap, I wouldn't say I'm not responsible for any outcome. In life, you'll be trolled, used and all other fucking things that you can never think of. But how many of them worth your time and tears.

At the same time, I would love to express my gratitude to my wonderful bunch of friends who stayed through with me, thick and thin. 4A 2008. You guys have always been there, never change, never give up on me. You guys are the only ones that live up to this statement, friends don't just come and go.

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